This Is It

Went to watch "This is it" with my friends. I was never a big fan of Michael Jackson. 

Affected by the media, in the last few years of his life, I read his news like I read other Hollywood people news. This "movie" totally changed my view towards MJ. 

How serious are you towards your life? And how much effort are you willing to put in your career? For MJ, he wanted to show his fans the best. Even of his old songs, he made sure they were to sing as if he was singing them for the first time. He remembered all his songs, all the lyrics, every single notes... Every note, every tune and every step was to be perfect. He loved what he was doing. He spent time with his team to make sure he created an impact, gave the best to his fans.

Now I understand why he was so successful. His PASSION.

I hope you have the same passion towards your life.

復活節守夜

受洗禮已經三年。 每年的這一天﹐ 我都會想起三年前的那一天。 今晚也不例外。 RCIA團每一年都不遺余力﹐ 讓受洗禮的我們﹐ 能感受祂的愛。 記得當年我非常興奮﹐ 凌晨三 ﹑ 四點才睡。 今年﹐ 凌晨五點才上床。

神父在他的講道中提到“信念”。我們常說﹐ 我相信我所看到的。 我們也許會盼望在兩千多年前﹐我們可以跟隨祂。要是我們當時在祂的身邊﹐ 我們真的會相信祂嗎? 這麼多人當時在祂的身邊﹐看﹐ 他們做了什麼? 連祂的信徒﹐ 在接下來的一生都一直在掙扎這份信念。 如果﹐ 今天有人在禮拜時站起來說他是神之子﹐ 有人會相信嗎? 所以﹐ 我們看到的﹐ 不一定要相信。 所看不到的﹐ 如信仰﹐ 信不信由你。 “復活”是另一個掙扎。 當其他人離世時﹐ 我們常安慰說他/她已上了天堂﹐ 祂提昇了他/她。 可是當我們的近親離世時﹐ 我們變得好像相信人生只有這一世。 呵﹐ 怎麼會這樣?

每年的這一晚﹐ 我總在看2007的我和今天的我。 我的信仰在成長嗎? 從去年的這一天到今天﹐ 我做了什麼? 我是越來越靠近祂﹐ 還是遠離祂?


我可以肯定的是﹐ 我開始相信祂會給我祂認為對我是最好的。 我必須承認﹐ 在過去的兩個月﹐ 我被挑戰這份信念。 也許因為﹐ 我的禱告沒有回應。 但﹐ 每當我發現祂的用意﹐ 我的信念增加了。 信念增加時﹐ 就表示我越接近祂。 希望會有那麼一天﹐ 我會完全相信祂。 希望這一天不是我見祂的那一天... ^_^

Easter Vigil

It has been 3 years since I was baptised. Every year after that, when I went for Easter celebration, I often thought of my baptism night. Tonight was the same. The RCIA team did a wonderful job every year, give us a lot of gifts, help us to "believe in Him". I was so excited that night when I was baptised and stayed up until 3 - 4am even though I was exhausted. This year, I only went to bed at 5:00am.
Father mentioned about "Faith" in his Easter homily. Seeing is believing, we always say. Some of us might wish to be there 2,000 years ago. But even when we were there, would be believe in Him? There were so many people around Him then. Were they all believe in Him? Even His disciples were struggled. If He appears today, stands next to us, will we believe in Him? So... belief, is not always "when we see it".

"Resurrection" is another struggle. When other Christian brothers or sisters pass away, we will say, they have gone to Heaven, or the Lord has raised them up in resurrection. But when our closed relatives are gone, we tend not to believe there is a better life after this...

Every year of this very day, I look at the past (on my baptism night) and now. How's have my faith grown throughout the years? What have I done and gone through since the last Easter and now? Am I drawn to Him more or away from Him?

What I'm sure is, through these years, I have increased my faith. I now begin to believe He will give me the best (He thinks of me). I admit that these past two months were a test of this faith "do you believe He will give you the best?" I too, struggled with my faith sometimes. Mostly because my prayers have not been answered. And I know there will be many struggles in the days to come. But each time when I realize what He has done for me, my faith increases. When my faith increases, it brings me closer to Him. Until one day, I will have no doubt in Him. I know that day will come. All I hope is, it won't be the day I unite with Him. ^_^

Lent

This past Wednesday ended the Lent season. It is not always have to be sad and miserable, but more on reflection. I often thought of this, "reflection", during the last one month. Was also had tons of conversation with Him about it. In the last week of Lent, I made a point to stop by the chapel for at least half an hour after work. Through this exercise, I found myself entering His peace and comfort.

Life in the outside world is always busy and chaos. There is also constant "noise" to keep me content, songs, conversation, thoughts... Even though I try to drive quietly to work (no radio, no music), I still find difficulty to hold a conversation with Him. When I visit the chapel, silence engrosses me. Peace starts to fill in, mind starts to calm down... there, conversation is uninterrupted.

Even for a non-Christian, you can still walk into church or chapel to seek for peaceful mind. It is because these places are holy, and silence is to be observed.

Good Friday

這並不是快樂的一天。 兩千多年前不是﹐ 兩千多年後的今天也不是。 整個儀式是莊嚴, 沉靜的...
聖餐時﹐ 唱詩樂團選了這首聖歌﹕ "He will carry you"


There is no problem too big
God cannot solve it
There is no mountain too tall
God cannot move it
There is no storm too dark
God cannot calm it
There is no sorrow too deep
He cannot soothe it
If He carried the weight of the world upon His shoulders
I know my brother that He will carry you
If He carried the weight of the world upon His shoulders
I know my sister that He will carry you


情不自禁﹐ 眼淚掉了下來... 是的﹐ 有什麼祂不能緩和的? 再深的傷﹐ 只要放心交給祂﹐ 有一天會痊癒。 也許﹐ 要等一年﹐ 三年﹐ 甚至十年 總有那麼一天﹐ 傷口會愈合... 只要我相信。
多年前的今天﹐ 祂為了愛我們而犧牲自己。 三天後﹐ 祂替我們贖得永生。
有首詩歌這樣唱:

Dying You destroyed our death
Rising You restored our life

在祂的面前﹐ 總是渺小的。 老是覺得自己的困難很大﹐ 困擾很多。 和祂比起來﹐ 差太遠了...
明天﹐ 會是另一個開始...