He Won't Let Go

"I Won't Let Go"  ~Rascal Flatts

It's like a storm
That cuts a path
It breaks your will
It feels like that

You think you're lost
But you're not lost on your own
you're not alone

I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
If you can't cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I won't let go

It hurts my heart
To see you cry
I know it's dark
This part of life
Oh it finds us all
And we're too small
To stop the rain
Oh but when it rains

I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
And you can't cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight

And I won't let you fall
Don't be afraid to fall
I'm right here to catch you
I won't let you down
It won't get you down
you're gonna make it
Yeah I know you can make it

Cause I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
And you can't cope
And I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I won't let go
Oh I'm gonna hold you
And I won't let go
Won't let you go
No I won't 

 

When I first listened to this song, I thought I like it because it's from Rascal Flatts. But when I heard it the second time, going line by line with the lyrics (from AZ Lyrics), my tears just rolled down my cheeks. I couldn't stop crying for a long time. 

You hear all my sorrows, my happiness, my tears, my bitter, my sweet... You hear them all. I feel, as if You are telling me: You will stand by me, You will dry my eyes, You will fight my fight and, You will hold me tide, and never let me go.

I've been reading a book called "Disappointment with God" by Philip Yancey lately. What attracted me was how he would write such a book to his audiences, when I knew he is a renowned Christian writer.

In his book, he mentioned some Christians claimed that when they asked God for help, they heard nothing from Him. When I read that, I asked myself if I ever thought of it. Maybe, maybe during my search for God and before I was baptised. But, I really don't remember. I only remember He is always at my side. I'm blessed, and I always am thankful for that. 

When things don't turn out my way, I ask Him: is it something You want me to learn and I'm yet to pick it up? Ever since last year, I've learned to ask Him when I was helpless or hopeless: Is it something You haven't told me, and I should wait a bit longer? Everytime when I turn, puff, there, is Your message. 

I always believe He talks to everyone of us individually, in His own way. You might not hear Him directly, message might come from a writing, or a song, or by a messenger that only you can understand the meaning of the words, or a movie scene, or a scenery by the road side, or a dish... I just want to say, He is here, He is everywhere. He has His own unique way to express it, only you will know it. Sorry to say that, everyone of us receive the message in different forms. Peculiar? Yes, it is.

Sometimes we are deaf and dumb, we need to be reminded more than once. That's why in prayer, we ask for His mercy and wisdom to understand His Word. We do it every Sunday.  ^_^

I will always remember that You stand by me, help me through, dry my eyes and fight my fight. You will hold me tide and never let me go. At the end of my life, You will wait for me at the gate of heaven. 

I always believe that.

始終有您

始終有妳

作詞﹕易家楊                        作曲﹕趙傳                            編曲﹕楊振華

我驀然回首                來時路漫長又孤寂

可是在我的心裡        總有一個妳

有太多個春來冬去    我以為只剩下自己

躲在黑夜裡顫抖        該往哪裡去

從台北香港到上海    下著同樣的雨

太多的寂寞城市        我        走走停停

*但我的心中               始終有妳

迷路時候不曾忘記    有一個妳        陪我走下去

在狂風之中                始終有妳

在遠方要我別放棄    妳願意這一輩子        與我同行

知道當趙傳在寫和唱這首歌時﹐絕沒有我這般的想象。剛才聽到這首歌時﹐忽然感動得哭了。

最近在聽80﹑90年代的歌曲﹐趙傳的這張精選是尋寶時發現的“寶”。最近﹐也在看本叫“對天父失望”的書﹐因為好奇基督教的作者為何會寫這樣的一本書給讀者。

書中提到一些虔誠的基督信徒﹐如何對天父感到失望﹐如何“叫天﹐天不應”。然後我反問我自己﹐是否曾有這樣的懷疑。也許在最初或還沒洗禮時﹐有這樣的想法吧。可是我記不起來了﹐我只記得祂總是在我身邊的時候。我是幸運的﹐總不忘感恩。

每當事情的發展沒有自己想像的那樣順利時﹐我總問祂﹐是我哪裡沒做好﹐或是您想我從那裡學到什麼。從去年開始﹐我已學會在最失望﹑無助的時候﹐問﹕是否您還沒準備告訴我﹐要讓我再堅持些什麼﹐要我再耐心的等一等。每次驀然回首﹐或突然停下來﹐才發覺您想說什麼。

書中有些信徒總是大聲地問﹕您要告訴我什麼? 我卻認為祂用祂的方式告訴我們每一個人。不一定是聲音﹐有時會是文字﹔有時會是歌曲﹔有時會透過其他人傳達﹐而且是只有你自己才聽得懂的意思﹔有時是電影的一個畫面﹔有時是路上的風景﹔有時是你吃到的一道菜... 我要說的是﹐祂無所不在。祂表達的方式﹐是獨特的﹐是只有你才會懂的。不好意思﹐每個人真的是不同的。

我承認﹐有時候我們是反應遲鈍的﹐祂要說好幾遍﹐我們才懂。所以禱告里有段﹐祈求祂賜給我們智慧﹐能夠了解祂要告訴我們的話﹑要我們走的路。

是的﹐我會記得﹕有那麼的一個您﹐陪我走下去﹔您也會在我的這一輩子裡﹐與我同行。在您蒙昭之時﹐您會在天堂的門檻邊﹐等著我。

我是如此深信。

Keep Walking

I've not written for so long, just realized it. And, in English. 

I was busy with what I called "living" in the past couple of months, and again, at a crossroad. Met a friend last week to talk about it. Deep down, I knew I was looking for support and confirmation on the road I tried to lead. He has been walking on his for number of years, I was asking for guidance. 

Despite of my busyness, I'm starting to shape my goal (though inspired by this friend of mine after last week's meeting). I slowly form the solid image in mind, and start walking down the path. I'm also glad that, I've started to do serious Chinese translation of English works, whenever I could. What I mean of "serious translation" is the translation from workplace, not at my blog site. It feels great to see the accomplished pieces, as it is a job that closed to my heart.

I know, there is light at the end of the tunnel. I just need to keep on walking. And, He will always be with me. 

 

形象

好久沒有寫些東西了。 不是沒有感觸﹐ 只是把注意力放到另兩個部落格里。 昨天剛好又和好友出來﹐ 談了好多東西﹐ 才想要寫下來。 

最近很積極地在做形象上的調整﹐ 因為過去的三年﹐ 真的很汗顏。 有人不介意﹐ 加上懶﹑ 身邊的人也不打扮種種理由﹐ 差點就穿睡衣上班。 現任老闆非常講究穿著﹐ 雖然他沒開口﹐ 我倒常介意站在他的身邊得不得體。 所以趕快惡補。 去年學了化妝﹐ 前陣子買了李昀著的<<做自己的形象顧問>>﹐ 最近買了<<美白漂亮 這樣吃才對>>﹐ 都是為了找出適合自己的儀態。  上星期在朋友的宴會里出了醜﹐ 穿錯衣服﹐ 真想立即離場。 瀝瀝在目﹐ 非下功夫不可。 

看了李昀所寫的書﹐才發現原來不是所有的顏色都適合自己。 我以前是個喜歡什麼顏色的衣服就買的人。 看了她的分析﹐ 再回 想自己最近試衣﹑買衣的經驗﹐ 才領悟到有些顏色穿在自己的身上﹐ 真的不能看。 弄懂了之後﹐ 毅然把不適合自己顏色的衣服﹐ 放到回收袋里﹐ 準備送人。 以前會覺得可惜﹐ 會放一陣﹐ 結果總是沒有再穿。 朋友也提示﹐ 以後買衣可以找個朋友一起﹐ 方便給意見﹐ 就不會出現後悔的情況。 

好形象的改變﹐ 不但會有眼前一亮﹐ 也會增強自信心。 

接下來考慮的是﹐ 該不該換髮型...  哈!